Title is from a line in Castle in the sky laputa Finish it haha

Anyway asides from that Time for my daily review of how my life is so far.

School started sometime in late august or early september. big woop.
This year I have lost the girlfriend who I thought I loved but apparently i was in love with someone who would just get mad at me most of the time and just nag on me and honestly you can burn on me all the hell you want but I am a sensitive guy, and I do not do well with females who will just snap at me for no good reason or get mad at me when something big happens. Like I lost another family member by the name of kathy i believe i dont know her all to well and it still bugs me so much. but three days after hearing that alone....Ex girlfriend calls and is mad at me. for what I dont know. I felt like so much shit when i heard her i just felt worse.

After the break up i felt...relieved and less stressed. But afterwords I am knee deep in school work and it slowly builds up but i still have my trusty pencil and working hard. dealing with after school and knocking what i need done out of the way. been drawing alot on paper got to show you all some of my drawings made a new character too. he is a cyborg HUMAN Named Xenox Geurosokowitcz.

Not much afterwords or right now just dealing with life one day at a time.

Wait on second thought. I had this dream last night and I have no recollection of it at all so it had bugged me through the whole day, and I hope that it doesnt keep bugging me but something tells me inside that what happened in the dream will happen in person...

and honestly.....school life is ok. but emotionally for me right now...I feel all mixed up...
Things are going to well in me head and me myself feel....lost and alone. I mean I have all my friends yes but it just still seems that I am all alone...I dont know whats up, and that bugs me even more i hate feeling like this it just... argh well...I am breathing now and dealing with school as it is. still talking to everyone. they all showed that they are concerned how I am but.....I still feel lost and alone I dont know why. I hate it....i hate hate hate it! it just bugs me so much to feel like this.......

Sorry I needed to get that out and I still feel like so but I know they care about me.. but still feel so mixed up inside. I dont want to worry you all but if you comment hoping that things go well for me. that will make me happier inside.... I like...no love the fact the people worry about me cause it shows they do care about me but when someone just goes up and just says stuff like "your a fucking wuss. You never amount to anything" or just yell at me in a mad tone I just feel so sad inside.....just...argh this journal probably isnt making sense to any of you...well...sorry..

For all of you. I give you my prayers and hopes that all your lives go Extremely well.
And to my Parents and my friends and all of my family also. even the ones that dislike me.

so what if I care to much. It makes me who I am. and I care about everyone even if it doesnt involve me at all. I just want to help...I dont care if people dont help me. I always find away to pick myself up....and I am jsut glad there are people who help me too. it makes me so happy inside...alright Enough of this I am sounding glooming.

Have a nice day everyone and I pray for all of you to have a wonderful life and excellent days.
Good bye.

--InuAzuma
-Carlos Vangas